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Double rainbow… (Image: Sandi Martinez)

Subtlety has never been a big strength of mine. In fact, I’m always ready to give anyone and everyone whom I interact with, a steady dose of frankness. I couldn’t possible do it any other way. And so it’s for this reason, I write frankly – now.

I couldn’t get into my WordPress account and failed miserably every time I tried. And so today, a miracle happened… First, I decided not to give up so easily and kept trying until it worked. Second, I realized I had made too many excuses. See, I’ve started my second installment to my trilogy, Divine Wars; the Awakening. However, I’ve not been writing like I know I should. Like all other writers will tell you, write, write, and write, even if just a paragraph, or half a page, or a whole page… though I wholly agree, I must say, it’s never that easy.

And of course anything else I say, will just sound like more excuses. So I’ll be honest. I started off on the wrong foot. I let my ego take the driver’s side rather than follow the magical and easy way that creativity makes its way though me; lightning that strikes deep within. Words I don’t try hard to put together, are suddenly strung snugly and wound tight around each other, as the words flow. The result? A rich story I could have never written on my own – my ego is too full of itself for that – yet as I write this, I feel whole again. Even this one entry, so few words, gives me hope and inspiration to keep going. I share this with all of you creators… don’t be hard on yourself, just don’t give up. Whatever you do, keep writing, keep painting, keep dancing, keep creating music, open your heart to the divine, and know a wellspring of magic awaits to pour from you and out to the world. Don’t be greedy… like I’ve been.

 

Many blessings,  Sandi

The true gifts of ‘catch and release’

Abiquiu Lake, New Mexico (Image: Sandi)

Abiquiu Lake, New Mexico (Image: Sandi)

A little over a month has gone by now since I published my book, Divine Wars; the Awakening. And though I’ve started the second installment in a trilogy, I am at a loss as to how to proceed. You see, the awakening happened at a time in my life when I literally was ‘waking up’. I should tone it down though by being more honest and casting it in the light that it really shines: I began heavily shifting from one mindset to several. I no longer lived an ordinary life. By that I mean, not only was I doing my daily duties at my job, my home, and other important tasks that called my attention – I began to feel and live the other dimensions – the ones that we pass by so happily ignorantly in bliss.

I don’t like admitting that I can no longer write in the same capacity as I had been. It took me a year and four months to write the awakening. Now, it seems I live my life battling divine wars in one way or another. By the way, a priest, or other clergies of the church might know exactly what I’m talking about. The conundrum, is I am no priest, nun, or clergy of the church as we know it. I simply am me, seeing and feeling my way through life in ways that others simply don’t, or aren’t capable of. Not because they are not able to, but because they have not awakened.

So, I live my life now, trying to strike a balance. A job, my home, my writing, and not necessarily in that order. The second installment calls for extreme measures. A writing schedule (though not of any doing of my own) must be hatched carefully. My divine guardians are patient, but for how much longer? My divine guidance is potent, but how am I to reign it in, and make the most of a story that has already been written?

Angels and demons, the war continues, and has been quite alive and well since the day it started. My divine muse comes in many different shapes and sizes, and wears the most elegant of satin, lace, and a material so sheer, you’d think there is but naked flesh underneath… a bit like silk, but even thinner and more transparent… don’t fret, if you really want a muse like this, they are but an invite away…

Until I can find my rhythm once again, I am awash with worry, guilt, and confusion. How will I find the time and the perfect place, and environment to continue on with the second installment? I don’t expect any answers believe it or not, I’m just ranting and raving over something that will in one way or another, solve itself as it always has. But I do thank you for listening…

The totally organic, angelic, experience…

(Image: Sandi Martinez) 'Divine Wars; the Awakening'.

(Image: Sandi Martinez) ‘Divine Wars; the Awakening’.

Okay folks, I’ve talked about it and now it’s here…

The first installment in a trilogy, this book takes the reader into a world of unknowns. Fate and destiny intertwine; creating a plethora of supernatural delights where angels stand on sidewalks, smile wide at strangers, and open doors with genial courtesy.

While at the same time, demons stalk the innocent and hopeless. Two worlds collide, a multi-dimensional catastrophe as timeless and cyclical as eternity itself.

To check out the book trailer, click here!

Again, I’d like to say thank you to my angels for their guidance, support, creativity, patience, and as always… their amazing brilliance.

Oh… don’t change much!

I know I said I would share a portion of my book; the first book in a trilogy soon. I lied – okay, not really. I just think I’ll be waiting a bit longer than I thought to put something up. Editing has proven to be not only challenging, but refreshing. I have this wonderful opportunity to move, delete, rewrite, and/or keep what I think makes the story… not breaks it.

I won’t pretend that it’s easy. In fact, my ego wants to say, ‘Oh, don’t change much’, but really, my ego isn’t in charge here, it’s my soul that streamlines this wonderful process.

So stay tuned… I will eventually share a snippet of my book as I get closer to completing the editing stages.

Writing means sharing. It’s part of the human condition to want to share things – thoughts, ideas, opinions.

Paulo Coelho

The world of editing

In many ways, editing your own work can create a sense of dread. I say this because I’ve finished the first book of a trilogy that I’m writing, and am now in the editing phase. As I edit, I find I have to change things I liked when I first put the words down. Now, I find I have to change a lot… this puts my story in a very malleable and twisted state. It means that I have to shift other parts later in the story to align with the beginning.

While this is somewhat painful, I feel it is a very important and necessary plight to contend with. I am no longer the creative writer. I am the critic who now nit-pics and picks apart every sentence, adjusting and changing words, and reminding myself that it’s all for the best. There are days I don’t want to edit. Times I tell myself I can do it ‘later’. But the truth is, it’s a long process and I don’t like having to change the things I’m seeing, but beg to be transformed.

In the next few posts, I would like to share some excerpts of my book prior to publishing. I will need your input and brutal honesty. I’ve written this story for you – the readers.

… Stay tuned.

Many blessings,

Sandi